Yesterday was a strange day, I just didn’t feel hungry at all which is not like me.
I don’t know why this is… could it be the Kefir?
I never want to eat breakfast and have to force myself with that one anyway. I started off with two triple shots of second ferment orange zested Kefir and then put the rest, around 300mls into my porridge which also had a handful of dried apricots and another of dried cranberries. I couldn’t eat it all, I was really struggling. The Kefir made it a little thicker than usual and I’m not sure if that just made it more bulky.
I NEVER leave food. One of my big problems is that I eat even when I’m full so it’s good for me to be thinking about stopping eating when I’m no longer hungry… this is another milestone and a definite positive for today.
I washed breakfast down with a pint of water and a peppermint tea.
For lunch I had a pint of water and I grabbed a piece of wholemeal toast with a very light spread on it from my daughter’s plate. I also had an orange.
For dinner I was struggling. I wanted to make an easy Thai Red Curry that I’d seen on a fellow blogger’s site but I wanted to really enjoy that and wanted to be really hungry to make sure I did. So I decided against that as I wasn’t feeling hungry at all.
Eventually I had a tiny tuna salad with a boiled egg.
This is perhaps the first time in my life that I’ve not been hungry. I really don’t know if it’s my positive mental attitude and will power or if it’s just the switch to three meals a day or if it is the Kefir. In the first couple of days I had experienced much less hunger than usual at the end of the day but this was nothing, I could have gone through the evening and to bed with no food at all.
I guess I could ask “Why didn’t I?” and my answer would be that I’m not about to starve myself. By anyone’s standards a small bowl of porridge with fruit a slice of bread some water and tea is not enough for a day. Or should I not be thinking like that?
I’m confused. Should I just not eat if I’m not hungry? Or should I make sure I eat three meals a day even if they are very light meals? I have honestly never been in this position before, even when I’ve been ill, even with stomach upsets or a raging throat infection I have carried on shoveling it in.
If anyone’s been in this situation or has insider expert knowledge on what’s best to do I’d appreciate thoughts/advice.
Also last night I could not get tired for the life of me. I went up to bed (I had committed to early nights, restful sleeps and early wake ups from the beginning as part of a change in my routine) but I could not sleep. I drank some water read a book, looked at another book, got on my Kindle looked through some notes I’d made on another book, started buying books, got out my lap top started reading blogs. I was wide awake and in the end it was some ultra relaxing music which I stumbled upon which finally did the trick of lulling me into a happy content place and I finally fell asleep way into the early hours. Check out the music I’m talking about by clicking here
I wonder if I had been anxious about something or if I had pent up energy I needed to expel or get under control. Maybe I need to increase my activity level. As it’s a bright sunny day I think I’ll go for a long walk on the beach with my son (if he ever wakes up) and see if that helps me to sleep tonight.