I got her this lovely emerald green lucky clover
She will just love it.
I can’t believe how I let things affect me and threaten to stop me from doing the things I want to do. If that had been something for me I would have backed down but when it come to my kids I get this strength that pushes me well out of my comfort zone.
This is how I take flights and go on roller coasters and subject myself to all manner of fear facing when it comes to them even when I’m not fat. I don’t want their memories to have a big gap where I should have been, I don’t want gestures I want to make go unmade and risk them thinking I didn’t care enough or they weren’t worth it I have to find the courage to face my fears, of heights or of flying or just this irrational one of shopping malls.
Thank you so much to everyone for your encouragement and kind words and sharing your own thoughts on this subject, it helped me to do what I had to do and not feel bad about it.
I didn’t buy anything bad to eat I came home and had a nice refreshing glass of Kombucha and started to prepare a nice healthy chicken curry for dinner.