My son couldn’t understand why sometimes I can’t do things that I really want to do. I was telling him last night how I feel as a fat person, how I find it difficult to go out and be around people, how I feel self conscious and like people are looking at me and how I feel ugly. He did his holding my hand thing and he had a very concerned look on his face and as he often does when words fail him he went off and came back with his keyboard, set it up in the lounge, flicked it onto piano and he played me… literally played me this and sang it to me so beautifully. I was bawling let me tell you, I thought he’d written it until he told me who the artist was at the end.
This boy is the most beautiful soul I have ever been near to… he is just (crying again) the most caring little guy ever, so sensitive and he finds ways to make music heal. Listen to/read the words. He told me (extra bawl) that he has a friend at school who is anorexic and people make fun of her because she is so thin, she has only confided in him about her diagnosis because she knows she can trust him, they think it came from her mum dying of cancer quite suddenly last year, 14 and no mama oh my heart broke when it happened but I had no idea about the eating disorder until now. My little gent told me how he supports her and protects her and tries to help her eat and covers up for her with the other kids when she just can’t do it. He told me he played this song to her at school and it helped her to see herself differently. I had no clue and I’m gushing with pride at the man he is going to be… if you have daughters I’m taking bookings for wife interviews now, he should be ready in about 10 years 😛
Gosh, I feel amazing about myself now, today I haven’t given a stuff about anyone looking at me. I know I am an amazing woman, I made this little guy who just inspires and upholds me at his tender age, who always knows what to say and do to make someone feel better, who cares deeply about everyone and he can’t have possibly come out of a bad person and what is more, he thinks I am beautiful and if he thinks I am beautiful then I most definitely must be.
Listen and reflect and enjoy 🙂