So here I am. I began this journey on 04 April 2014 too scared to get on the scale to find out how overweight I was. A week later I had already made progress enough to realise that I had to know what the damage was and had to give myself something to aim at and hold myself accountable against. On 11th April 2014 I discovered that this is what I weighed, having no doubt already missed out on capturing the first week big loss that often happens with a significant switch in eating and movement.
Starting Weight 24 stone 11 pounds 347lbs 157.4 kgs
This is what it looked like when I finally decided it was time to have a look at the controversial BMI situation months later
I found that I had been in the Super Morbidly Obese category and that meant that my weight was going to cut my life short. I was a single mother of two amazing children and I had risked leaving them in a world without me. I’m not sure I’ll ever forgive myself that. But, by then I had already shifted enough fat to be on the border of Morbidly Obese and just plain Obese. The next weigh in pushed me over that line and I found myself just obese. For some that would have been a horrendous thought but for me it was music to my ears. My doctor said that this meant I had significantly reduced the chances of contracting or dying from an obesity related illness, but I was not out of the woods yet and I knew there was still a way to go. On 7th November 2014 these are my stats:
Revised Weight 17 stones 10 pounds 246lbs 111.58kgs
and this is my BMI, sitting in the mid obese range and heading towards just overweight. I can’t wait to be just overweight but I will have to because this is a long, steady slow road to getting to a normal weight and more importantly, staying there.
I’ve lost 101 pounds which is 7 stone 3lbs or 45.81kgs.
I know that I’ve had a faster loss than I would anticipate at this stage in the past couple of weeks but I think that is nothing to do with exercise and diet, I think that is due to my cycle having returned to normal and so showing fluctuations in shedding of pre-menstrual water and all that palaver. I’d had no cycle at all for a long time and then something intermittent and now a perfectly healthy normal cycle again for the first time in years and so I guess my weight loss stats will reflect losses and gains which reflect that and so I’m ready for some fluctuations, familiar from weight loss efforts in the past. When we groan when everything gets blamed on our weight as fat people some of it is actually true. How fat affects menstrual cycle I don’t know but if it affects that then what else does it affect that is not as obvious?
I don’t have weight loss goals set against time frames but I really want to be looking at a sustainable 1-2 lbs a week now and as I adopt eating and exercise habits which I can continue long term as part of my every day life and also as I seek to shrink without leaving myself with saggy skin, something I’ve avoided thus far.
Out at the onset of this I developed a visual motivational tool to help me to lose the first 10 stone or 140lbs of weight and that visual was Tracey who you can read about in my introductory post here: Meet Tracey
Today Tracey looks like this and serves as a constant visual motivator on my blog home page and also as a paper version with removable sections which has been on my dining room wall since April.
So I have 101lbs gone and still a way to go. Tracey still has 6 chunks to be vanished away, that’s 49lbs alone and that still won’t be enough to get me into that normal BMI range, I’ll be at 197lbs by then and will still have around another 30lbs to go to get me safely inside that normal weight BMI.
I guess that is my ultimate goal but it could be that I never get there. I’m at a UK size 16 at the moment, a 14 if it’s got stretch and can’t imagine losing another 80lbs and not looking emaciated. But we’ll see. Emaciated is not a look I’m up for, I want a little bit of meat on the bone.
So this is just a milestone, 100lbs is quite an achievement for someone who thought she’d never get past the first 14lbs. I’ve found that although weight loss is a great indicator of success and a real boost at times, it is not everything. There is so much more to tackling obesity than losing weight.
I’m so much healthier, happier and mentally well than I was before. My life is enriched, my children have a better mum and I just feel as if the fog in my head is clearing, a fog that had been there for a very long time and is still very thick in parts but we’re working on that. I rest better, I trust more, I let go of control, I allow myself to be loved and cherished, I see opportunities, I have a different perspective on life. It’s about so much more than losing weight and while those targets are there, they are somewhat wishy washy because all of the other stuff means so much more to me now. Improving on my quality of life is what spurs me on but it doesn’t hurt to celebrate a little triumph along the way and without a doubt my weightloss and lifestyle change has been the catalyst for so much more change in my life and so as the foundation for it all it deserves a little bit of a hell yeah!
I am always mindful that it took me years to get to the state I was in and so I’m happy if it takes me years to get out of it, this early fast progress has been inspirational and is a fantastic building block or foundation on which to base the rest of my life and my slow and steady weight loss in the future.
Thanks to all of my followers in the blogging community who have commented, liked, asked questions, spurred me on and encouraged me every step of the way and put up with my ramblings and wobbles and given me sound advice and lots of laughs. This really wouldn’t have happened without you all, you’ve been my counsellors and partners on this journey and I think of you as valuable friends, who have offered me more understanding and human compassion than many of my real life ones. I’m truly grateful but unfortunately I have to inform you that there are years of this to go yet 😉